mantan

bukan aku yang berani melepas jalan itu,

walau pernah ku lalui tempat itu,

dan masuk ke rumah mu.

walau lama waktu dulu masih girang dimuka ku 

pernah sekali tangan mengetuk,

pintu putih terakhir kali,

wajah mu sayu walau maaf ku sambut,

tetap ku gagahi kembalikan dengan takut

takut sahaja ku gugur disitu,

walau kau kuat untuk tampung beratnya

masih ku ukir senyuman itu, 

untuk terakhir kalinya

lantas kaki melepas setapak,

setapak pergi melihat kebelakang

walau hanya pada waktu terjarak

tetap jua memori dalam kenangan

selamat hidup wahai mantan

senyum

kalau ini penghujung cerita....

~kalau daun bisa gugur bila patah cabang pokok, bukan itu pnyebabnya... pasti daun sudah perang kemerahan tidak bernafas lagi...~

setiap manusia punya perasaan, walau dia anggap dirinya berkuasa terhadap perasaannya, tetapkan luruh, ,melara, akibat luaran persekitarannya...

aku tahu bukan aku pertama, dia bukan yang kedua, mungkin sekali tiada tangga pun harus ku duduki, aku mengangkat mu amat jauh disudut pandang ku.....

aku tahu tangan bertepuk sendiri tidak ada bunyi kalau hanya satu tangan bekerja...

hanya segelintir sahaja dimatamu kau jaga, namun bukan aku dikelompoknya....

satu ku mohon, moga kau bahagia....

ku cuma disini...

Setiap kali ku fikir, ini saja jalan yang ku ada... ku harap apa yang menerpa kan ku jalani segalanya dengan hati terbuka....

unsuccesful.....(T T)

just wanna cry right now....

banjir sandakan 2011

banjir sandakan datang lagi....kali ini lagi dasyat...heheh.....

ni video nya:




ni waktu malam....

ni tadi, 29/1/2011

nobody read my blog! hahah

never mind...since ive change the setting to no body can give a comment, got nobody around to put some words, all of this coz of those spam, thats why I change it....

awkward feeling, mix and tangle around my round yellow ring above my head, sigh.. when will this matter will end, okay, like what ive been post a month ago, about UMS e-jobs, regarding to its test need to be done before I sit for the real interview, yeah, ive been done it... about 3 weeks ago, 3WEEKS AGO!! until now, there is no answer to my interview... OMG, its too long to wait,,...

last Wednesday, for not loosing a second, ill try to get some other interview, which work as a hotelier, yeaaaah, HOTELIER..

I know, sometimes we cant choose for what ever we need to find a good job, either its in govt or private, just take it....

I live here in Sandakan, if any body cant tell me where is Sandakan is, rise your hand????? ill show you the map.... :
in this town is too far to west part, coz its the easter in a map of Malaysia.....but here, i want to tell something, I was just grad from my degree in hotel management... DEGREE....so everybody, especially parents and your neighbour will think that we gonna gain high salary bcoz of we have degree, but, in Sandakan, almost of all corporate company will not pay you,looking on the achievement, they will pay you regard to your experience through the industry...

and a lot of different to compare if we work in hotel, in KUALA LUMPUR, the heart of Malaysia, the bussiest city in MALAYSIA... if a person got degree in hands, at least, 1500 will get pay and most higher than that...

but, here, in my hometown, between 750-1000.....what things can live with that??

but..... when i think about it again, people do that because they really want us to know the ambiance, to know the real situation while working in a reality life.....

but then, again, its too low....... yes, I will to gain for what it takes, for sure, people wanted more than 1000, thats is because, a heart of a son, who gamble a lot of money during his studied in getting for a scroll, money, time, all count, 3 years diploma, 3 years for degree,, 6 in total, ,.......sigh


im too old to wait any longer...

but,again.... God knows my best , everything does it miracle, just wait and see...

till then, I need money....sigh again...

a new entryy!!~ sorry took time to give some input....:P

halllloooooo!!~ as people know, I'm still got no job to work on... but, a plenty progress as there called as the "interview", been done for few of it, but still got nothing with it...(apa aku merepek)....

okay... lets get something to talk..... here, i show some awkward thing lives in our living room....

hehehehe

1)ashtray bertulang...hehehehthis thing, we bought while we in kk, 3 of us, my mom, my sister and I, went to kk, becoz of Im having a test to get an interview,. ... still waiting for the result... wish me luck,.... and when I saw this thingy' front of me, I took it, and bought just for my two brothers....who die hard fan for smoking.... but, they never use it, coz its 'beautiful' to ruin it...hehehehe....

2)blue ghoaty !
okay...... this thing similar to a ballon, fill with air, and this thing has been bought by my brother family in law, the time that they has slept for 2 weeks at their home, and this been a giant decor to our living room.... before, this has been used by my little nephew to run and jump, and kill each other, but then, when a new things come arrived, the old thing become an archive.....pity little goaty....heheheheh.....

now, there is a lot of thing actually.... but will update soon.....tarraaaaa!!~

finally got it!!!! resultt!!!~

amazingly this last semester just different to other period, you know that this is the answer of am I getting to grad on time??? does it feel to be proud on what I do for 3 years?? yes! I proud for what I've been done for the last semester.... but the CGPA doesn't look good for me.... oh my... btw, it's done... I'm finally graduate on time...... Thank You Allah,..... Thank you for the bless... my dad and mom, I know,I'm the one who spent a lot for the expenses in this 3 years... degrees in my hand! I just need to pray for what I'm going to do in a future.. and to my family, brothers and sisters.... hope this will be a start of our new life in rich and famous...hahahaha... nada dduit.....uwaaahh!~

ok, just for sure, i really wanted to work as govern server.., hoping for what I waited for so long, it'll come to me soon as possible.....pray for me guys......

aku sahaja belum keja.....:(

ok... aku belum keja.... susah nya cari keja, bila dapat keja, not fit with my desire...haha.. bkn memilih, tapi cara nak pgi keja tu susah sangat...

hope to seek more opportunity.... sigh*