tikus ku

i know this will happen to me....

felt annoyed by some others human that live nearest to my 'convenience', just make me piss of... i don't know whose I'm going to express this feeling, only dropping a words here....it makes me feel better..

"why people judge on the physical attraction? darling, it a mother nature...."

whatever...

some of people out there try to kill on what i felt before to some other called as 'subject', made my trust and honored to them goes to zero...

what comes from my mouth, become a manipulation for them to get what they really want. every time i spell out, lead them to do something out of so called 'friendship relationship'...

that's why i never trust nobody.

only, a few people i love, trust, being honored to be my friends, family, and a good citizen...

you know who...

little hurt expression comes from a heart....:(

I dont want to be a friends!!

rararararara,......hehehe..something hidden of meaning in the songs of lady gaga, bad romance...sigh,,..*

mari kita ketawa!!!!

ingat waktu kecil......hehehehehe

hurt so much.....:(

a long time to 'hibernated' here in my own home at sandakan...just get back from shah alam yesterday... im sorry, a 'busy bee' always do its job, to make my situation un-systemated, dont have times to put a words in here..now, got time, got story, got everything ....

after the extremely hardest part of my courses, for this semester, really bad to call it as a manipulator for higher CGPA,arggh.. doesnt make any proud things to called as a best graders... my though...but i always try my best, (typical word....sigh*)

but the thing that i hate bout my attribute for this life, especially my 6 months trial for this semester, i didnt attend for the CTU paper....adduuss...., never mind, anything has the reason...Only God knows why....

while im here, at my hometown, the first thought came out when i was landed, just to find my mom and hug her, definitely im missing her so much.....second my dad,..and the rest would be my family...duhh...

but the most highest level on my thinking was a person who really make my heart and brain wrote h** name on my imagination, i dont know,....just h** running the engine of my feeling, never written on any other names....just h**,....thats the reason why i came back..but not to meet h**, just to feel near, thats it..

people especially friends, thought that i was crazy by waiting on the reply of h** love....i always put myself to step on the reality, never put myself into fantasy, i know that...but feelings cannot remain normal as people out there, trying to change and just it,...

sad song always flew its melody, lingering to my ears, playing the love song, never against on it, cos i know it will heal my heart,.when i cry, it make me feel better...yaa, and i know, cry will not put h** to be stand in front of me feel the same way to,it will not happen..

but ill pray for h**, with all my heart, hope everything h* do, every path of h** life will be better without me by h** side....

love you....

Selamat Hari Lebaran.......

Its raya time!!!!!!!! during this most prosperous day, i would like to wish to all of bloggers a happy hari raya....

long time i havent do blogs, busy with all thing of "preparing".... hehe

k la,.......end of my word...selamat hari raya...maaf zahir batin.....:)

a night before merdeka....hihuhuh

I just went back home after celebrated for a birthday party, not so party, bcoz on mood of fasting, so we had a meal after breakfast.....



3 beautiful people...hehehe



farid, E, zarul and Hassan




cupcake homemade by intan

before we heading to Intan's house, we decided to bought a present to Fared, the birthday boy, and we choose a mug for the gift.

1 Malaysia signature....hehehe.....from up left; E, mimie, Imah, Jiha, Intan..

from left below; syam, moey(me), zarul, D.d and Farid(birthday Boy)

Intan told us to came early before he achange plan, so surprised him after we arrived together... nice breakfast so called 'party',hehehe.,,so those are the picture, the turqoise color is the birthday boy, and the organizer; intan wore matched color with his boyfriend...

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak dan Merdeka!

even im late to wish u all, but still we in a mood of Ramadhan. now we in a 9th of Ramadhan, si 9 days already we have been fasting.

syukur, we still live in a country far from war compare to the middle east country that fighting for their needs.

as we know, tomorrow also a big day to celebrate by us, a Merdeka Day, so in a month of Ramadhan , let us pray to Allah s.w.t, to have the prosperous and bless for living in a such wonderful and peaceful country.

a crappy holiday to me.... :(

recently, me, as a student of uitm, im not sure if this called a happy feeling or bad on having a holiday shocked announcement last week. For other students, well, they went back home to their own hometown,but for those who live far away from shah alam, like me, is hard to express my feeling, either like it or not....

my friends told me to go back to setiawangsa, coz my cousins were live there.. but, im to lazy to 'move my butt', hehehe....

so I finish my holiday alone here in my new rented house... hhehhheehh

living alone doesn't make me feel afraid,especially when i have an experience living alone while having a practical; during my diploma studies,i live in a village, surrounded by coconut tree and bushes, and when night comes,its so dark, there were no light at all on the road, but what makes me feel brave to live there, House of Allah(mosque) just next to my house,...hehehe...

when 'azan' on air, many of the dogs will do the singing, hoooohhooooohoooo...!! hahah, just like in a coir, so harmony...hehe..

so for this holiday, alone, again... many think i do just watched tv, dance like crazy, singing alone, and buy food in tapau only,...

its feel bored, but i have decided on it, to live alone than go back home to setiawangsa...

thats all for the news.....hehehe

a week in shah alam...

every thing had changed, im moved into a new house, a new housemate, same roomate, a new semester....

lately, the weather of shah alam become disaster, jerebuuuu!!!!....or jelebu???? pikir sendiri la...hehehe

i have record the situation in shah alam on having a very high risk jerebu... tengok la....:)